I stood on the rooftop,in the silent charismatic rain.I stand in the rain cause it hides my tears.My tears fell as my phone played the once loved ringtone of "Unfaithful" by Rihanna.I felt like this was probably the end.The end of everything that had happened in the last one week.The fact that I had loved him,loved him much more than any fucking shit on earth.The fact that when I was with him I was closest to myself.The fact that he was my whole entire world.The fact that he had cheated on me.
September 12th 2008.
I lay near the bedside lamp.There was blood.I don't know why or when.But there was a lot of blood.He was sitting in the chair opposite me,I looked up at him.I told him I was sorry.He looked back at me like I would never forget.That stone like glare that dug deep down into my soul.I felt myself falling apart,shredding my soul into tiny pieces I would never be able to gather.I looked down at my hands.His ring was not there.
He had cheated on me.I had beleived him to never cheat on me.I had loved him with all my heart and soul.WHORE.I cried as the rain increased in it's emotions like my heart ripped in it's case.Now I was crumbling to the floor.The phone still rang.I looked at the caller,it was him.HIM HIM HIM.Why? Why can he not just leave me alone
September 12th 2008.
5:30 A.M.
This time I woke up.I remember what had happened.I was still lying at that very place.There had been a girl.A girl who he had been close to.She was there in my room when I returned from the party.Liya's party.Her 24th Birthday.She had a pool party.That explains why I feel so cold.I am wearing next to nothing.I had caught him.With her.In my house.10 years of love for nothing.FUCK.Where was he now?
September 12th 2008.
I lay near the bedside lamp.There was blood.I don't know why or when.But there was a lot of blood.He was sitting in the chair opposite me,I looked up at him.I told him I was sorry.He looked back at me like I would never forget.That stone like glare that dug deep down into my soul.I felt myself falling apart,shredding my soul into tiny pieces I would never be able to gather.I looked down at my hands.His ring was not there.
He had cheated on me.I had beleived him to never cheat on me.I had loved him with all my heart and soul.WHORE.I cried as the rain increased in it's emotions like my heart ripped in it's case.Now I was crumbling to the floor.The phone still rang.I looked at the caller,it was him.HIM HIM HIM.Why? Why can he not just leave me alone
September 12th 2008.
5:30 A.M.
This time I woke up.I remember what had happened.I was still lying at that very place.There had been a girl.A girl who he had been close to.She was there in my room when I returned from the party.Liya's party.Her 24th Birthday.She had a pool party.That explains why I feel so cold.I am wearing next to nothing.I had caught him.With her.In my house.10 years of love for nothing.FUCK.Where was he now?
I decided I should pick up.I should pick his fucking call up.Hello he said.He was crying.He said he was sorry.That he loved me.That he wanted me back.I looked up at the sky.WOULD YOU DO THIS TO ME AGAIN?He said he couldnt.Life without me had been hell.That's when I told him.I told him.
At last.
I had sex with your best friend.
That night you cheated on me.
The rain tippered tappered and finally stopped.I could hear the deathly silence.
I put the phone down.
I got up and walked towards the last option.
I stood there for just about every moment it took for me to remember how I loved him.
Of what we were.
That was when I died.
